yes. i was. i looked it up. i took tests (i weird) but regardless i thought “nah. not possible. not me. it couldn’t happen. i can stop myself before I’m all bones. i dont even look like that”
thats what gets us all. thinking that an ED is a physical illness…. but its not. its a mental illness. it messes with your brain. how it processes information, how it calculates, how it functions, how it dozes off, how it goes through numbers, how it perceives your body image, how it conontates food. all of it. is mental. the distancing yourself from others, avoiding all food situations with your parents and constantly saying your “eating with your friends”. thinking that you can’t eat that food until you’ve done x amount of minutes of exercise.
either or my dear. it depends on you as a person as to which route will work.
i tried the “just gain the weight and up the calories” thing. it worked for three days at a time but then id fall into a vicious cycle. i would be sat, sun and monday on 3000 cals and then tues, wed, thurs, friday i would fall back horribly. it ended badly for me. to the point of hospital. i always had the feeling that a program was what i needed. that i didn’t trust anyone to feed me but those professionals. so my dear. its up to you. regardless, yes.. you should gain the weight and live on.
the real question is. do you want to do maudsley method on your own, or do FBT with your parents (i recommend this) or go into a PHP, outpatient, inpatient or residential program?
asked by Anonymous